Eating disorders are also very difficult to treat. If you don't face it for many years, you will get sick and try to avoid it by having an eating disorder. You may even think that if you don't get sick anymore, you will gain weight. This kind of thinking is very dangerous. You may even be afraid of getting better.
It's been a while! I'm sorry for not replying to your comments again! Just a little update. The other day, I explained to the psychiatrist I go to about my past experiences, although I can't tell him everything... It seems! I don't seem to have a developmental disorder. Lol I've felt something was off for a while, but...
BiSH / Rhythm [OFFiCiAL ViDEO]
Once I start thinking about it, I can't stop, and the "goal" is so far away that a sense of helplessness washes over me, but I hope I can get closer to it step by step, starting with small "objectives"... I think taking a detour is good too. I don't know if I can become the person I want to be, but right now I know who I want to be. And that's a really happy thing.
I have a constitution that always makes me dependent on something. When I lose that dependency, I try to find a new dependency. I want to break away from that kind of self, and there are other things I need to think about and do, right? It's very difficult to accept myself as unfulfilled... I end up wanting to depend on something, and I'm struggling.
I don't need anything ordinary / TENSONG [Official Music Video]
I wish I could do something for the second generation... I wish I could do something for those who have been abused... But I haven't yet faced my trauma, so when I remember it, it's painful, and I can't see anything, I can't say anything...💧
I'm fighting the desire to be destroyed.
My sense of guilt is probably the same as many second generation members of the Unification Church... Sex has been considered the worst thing, and I thought that when I "fell into hell", I was destined for hell. My family was dragged down with me. There was no turning back...
It's been a really long time since I took a slightly sexy selfie... I'm pretty embarrassed to take selfies at this age... I can't look at the camera...lol I've always been a sexy person, so I want to cherish these kinds of things every now and then💓 I'm me, and I think this kind of me is good👍🏻